Conversation between me and Canny
Me : Hai Canny.. Sorry tak reply SMS kau. Apehal kau SMS aku tetiba tu?
Canny : Can you give me Brenda's number phone?
Me : Why don't you look at her profile and save her image?
Canny : for what exactly?and why you say that?and she blocks me didnt you remember?ughh,.look,if u dont want give her nmbr...fine,i tired alrdy thinking about it..just,hah..
* Sampai kat sana, anis baru perasan yg dia sebenarnya minta nombor telefon Brenda, not her photo. HAHA *
Me : Ops.. Sorry Canny. Nda perasan pula. Ingatkan ko mw mnta gmbr c Brenda. Rupanya nmbr dia pula. Knpa ko mw nmbr dia?
Canny : Takpe.
Me : I'm sorry Canny :(
Canny : No, it's okay. I'm fine.
Me : How deep is your love with her?
Canny : Maybe i should jump from a ledge right now
Me : No!
I know you are breaking down because you are sick of never being good enough to her and you are done trying to be.
Canny : Dun worry its just a joke..i shouldnt say that to you,maybe you right..i should end it all this stupid feelings..she's treat me like a child anyway.. Yeah,i never was good enough for her,maybe its my height or my face haha
Me : You know what Canny? Nobody knows the real you. Nobody knows how many times you've cried about her. Nobody knows how many times you've lose hope, how many times you've let down. Nobody knows how many times you've felt like you are about to snap, but you just don't, for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go trough your head when you are sad, how horrible they truly are.
Canny : Your sounds like my private counselor A.K.A my sister..
Me : One more thing Canny, don't hope too much at her because that too much can hurt you too much. Do you get me?
Canny : Yeah,after 3 years ive been wasting my time waiting for her,and just i about to give up...i dont!maybe my frenz think i gave up but dont!i never quit on her never!i just cant forget her even her byfrend told me to stay away from her,i respect their relationship,until now..
Me : So, what would you do?
Canny : No,i just decided to forget her,thank you for standing next to me..maybe i dont deserve her,forever and ever
Me : Dear Canny, I'm proud with your heart. It's been burned and broken but its still works to love someone. :)
* Okay, perbualan kitorg stop sampai di situ. Dia tak reply langsung. Ehh, korg jgn hairan ehh. Si Canny ni memang cun English so no wonderlah klau ktorg asyik cakap BI je. HAHA :3 *
Conversation starts today (14 Sept 2013)
Canny : Dear Siti, are you available? HAHA
Me : Huh? Why did you say that? o.O
Canny : You will never understand.. Well, is it Yes or No?
Me : Just say it Canny :3
Canny : I Love You.. *Uwaaa, aku tak sangka dia cakap macam tu kat aku !! *
Me : Huh? Are you kidding me?
Canny : Yea * aku start tak faham dgn dia -.- *
Me : :3
Canny : * Canny sent a sticker :P *
Me : No, I mean I'm serious.
* Okay, anis tak reply chat dia sbb anis tengah menaip untuk blog ni. HAHA So, what should I say to him? I never had a feelings on him. I already have a crush and we used to text all day. Hmp.. But anis rasa okay lah dgn dia. Even dah 3 years dia tunggu si Brenda, and his heart has been played, burned and down but he still but its still work to love someone. *
Last talk :
Dear Canny ,
Kalau kau baca entri aku ni, aku minta maaf sangat'2 ehh aku share story kau dgn kengkawan blogger aku. HIKHIK ^^
Aku tak taulah apa yg kau cakap kat aku tu betul atau tak. So, aku tak dapat nak buat keputusan. Kau tau tak, tak lama lagi kita nak ambik PMR. Tapi kenapa kau still sibuk nak cari makwe? Kau kawan dgn aku pun just nak luahkan perasaan kau kat kawan aku tu jea. Aku tak sangka pulak perasaan kau tu boleh beralih pulak kat aku. You know what? Aku tak pernah simpan perasaan kat kau walau sekecil zarah pun. Nak kata aku baik sebab aku tolong kau, apa yg aku dah buat kat kau? Aku just bg nasihat and jadi tempat meluah kau je. Honestly, aku tak pernah tolong kau apa'2 pun -,-
Bila aku nampak kau update status and orang yg kau maksudkan dlm post kau tu ialah aku, aku dah rasa lain kat kau. Aku just anggap kau sbg kawan aku je tak lebih dari itu.
Aku tak halang kau utk simpan perasaan kat aku tapi aku tak nak kau sakit hati dan down lagi. I know how many times you've been down, how many times you've been played.
Kalau kau nak tau, aku dah ada crush *not boyfriend okay :3* and crush aku pun suka kat aku tapi kitorang tak nak 'couple' buat sementara ni. Sebab apa? Sebab dia tahu aku nak exam and still belajar. Yeah, we used to text everyday. Aku harap aku tak sakitkan hati kau okay. Aku minta maaf sangat'2.
But its okay, kau still boleh share story kat aku. Aku tak kesah pun :)
Belajar elok'2 eh, seminggu lagi kita nak exam. Fightingg!! :D
For my readers, ni je story anis nak share kat korg. Nanti anis update blog lagi ye. HEHE
Anis minta tolong sangat'2 kat korang, doakan anis berjaya PMR nanti. Semoga anis senang dan tenang nak jawab semua soalan. InsyaAllah, Amin :)
